coming out of my shell

coming out of my shell

Friday, July 6, 2018

Some people make me sick

I'm currently sick of interacting with people and need a break from reality. 

I am not a misanthrope, au contraire!  I like people very much. I am a social being, and I care deeply about society. I am able to forgive, and I trust easily. I admit my mistakes and apologize when I lose my temper. When younger, I had an endless capacity for love.  Or perhaps it was simply an endless capacity for the bullshit of others.  I dunno.  Hard to differentiate.


At any rate, I am cranky and snippy. I have just alienated a person with my bad temper and I feel bad about it.  However, she still makes me sick. 

I hate when I do this.



"Speak when you are angry and you will make the best speech you will ever regret.”
Ambrose Bierce

31 comments:

  1. I'm not sure what to say except I love the quote you shared. There's a lot of truth in it.

    And sometimes we all reach a point where we've just had enough of someone else's bullshit.

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    1. Yes, that's where I am right now. Hate it. I'll be happy when I feel otherwise.

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  2. I go through phases. I try hard to stay away when I am feeling thin skinned or short fused but that’s not always an easy think to do.

    I hope you either get some time away or, at least, some time with people who fill you up instead of drain you.

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    1. I have the entire weekend with no responsibilities, so will try to read and relax. That should do it.

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  3. From someone who put her foot in all the time: I feel for you.

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  4. I know you don't like being so bitchy but honey, some folks don't deserve you. Time to stay away from folks and chill out. Go float in the pool and dream of pretty flowers. Hugs!

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    1. Sounds like a good plan. I'm on it!

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    2. And, of course, the real problem is that I enjoy getting angry. I just have a hard time living with the results of my anger. Short fuse.

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    3. Luckily most of us with a short fuse (like me) explode and it's all over. I forgive very easily most of the time. So yell at me and we'll have a great shooting match and then go get pizza!

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  5. We seem to have a similar gift:)

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    1. Yes, I very much enjoyed reading (and empathizing with) your most recent blog post).

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  6. I get that way too and unfortunately for me I have to deal with people (mostly men) on a every shift for my job. When one ticks me off it takes me a while to cool off. I think the guys know when I am in a mood. My face always shows my feelings. Not one of my better attributes.

    And, on another note, interestingly enough, I am from central NY (born in Elmira, went to school in Corning and lived in Ithaca for a short time) and lived in FL for 30 years before moving to GA. It was nice to see your pictures of Ithaca and Watkins Glen. I miss that part of the country at this time of year.

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    1. I have been told that I shouldn't play poker because my face shows my feelings. I miss Central New York from May to mid-October every year. Such a beautiful place, but such a short growing season! Thanks for posting!

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  7. Once upon a time there was a young woman who had a big heart. She smiled and tried to make others happy whenever she could.
    Other people loved her and were pleased to be around her. She made them feel good.
    Unfortunately they often forgot to return the favor. And many of them took advantage of her good nature.
    Sometimes the young woman felt discouraged. She wanted everyone to be happy. She wanted to be happy.
    Some days she felt overwhelmed because she was the one handing out all the happiness. None of it was returned. She became angry on those days.
    What the young woman needed was some time to herself. She needed to pamper herself and not be concerned with others for a while. She took a hot bath. She picked the prettiest flowers to keep in her house. She ate a banana split for supper. She curled up in her bed with a cup of hot tea and a favorite book.
    She felt better soon.
    How is that for a nice fantasy get-away?

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    1. I like it! Especially the banana split for dinner part. Thanks, Emma!

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  8. How funny. My darling neighbor, young enough to be a daughter, recently said, "When I am old I want to be just like you and say F it and walk away." I guess I do. But I mostly don't remember.

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    1. You are my hero. I say F it a lot, but I really need to learn to walk away afterwards, before I get my butt kicked.

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  9. My daughter and I often muse that we hate people. Except we don’t. But we do. Ya, know?

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  10. My sister and I have the "I hate people" club. Sometimes she is the president, sometimes I am. I think our club has a lot of members.

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  11. Well, maybe when you've "cooled off" you can consider whether to approach the person you alienated with a mea culpa. (Or maybe not!) We all have those "I hate people" moments!

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    1. Thanks, Steve. In fact, I did apologize. It didn't go well (ha!) but at least I feel better about myself. In time, I'm sure she'll get over it.

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  12. We don't have to like everybody, or even anybody. You may if you believe you have a soul and worry about it becoming stained - I'm told the symptoms are the colour of rust. But souls are not obligatory and they can be an embarrassment. Heck, there's hardly room for me under my skin, never mind some finger-wagging do-gooder. I'm full to busting with intellectual curiosity; I'd make my soul's life a misery with all those difficult questions.

    There's a song in which the singer claims to have sold his soul to the company store (pronounced "stow" so it must be genuine folk.) Seems like a wonderful opportunity for fraud:

    "Waddya mean, I handed it over yesterday. Here's the receipt. I remember you discoursing on its purity."

    Besides which I kinda think you're fibbing. After all you apparently read The Devil's Dictionary.

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    1. Ambrose Bierce does make me laugh. He seems to have disappeared without a trace in Mexico during their 1913 revolution. I fear his cleverness proved his undoing. This should be an example to us all, right?

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  13. You know lately I've been more irritable and it is out of character for me too and I don't particularly like being that uncharacteristic. But, it IS OK to feel sometimes that range of neg emotions that others might evoke. I'm just learning more to Feel what I happen to Feel. I find that as I'm Aging my tolerance for B.S. or the unlovely behavior of some people is just waning. *LOL*

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    1. I hear you. I hardly recognize the person I once was.

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  14. I have the opposite problem - I rarely get angry - even when I should. I think it much healthier to let it all out even though you have to pick up the pieces afterward.

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    1. I suspect you are right. Thanks for weighing in.

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  15. Navigating relationships seem to get trickier every day. I get angry more now than when I was younger. But, when I was younger I also tended to internalize things more.

    Work to do. Still.

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So, whadayathink?