coming out of my shell

coming out of my shell

Thursday, September 19, 2019

Starting to feel better

I am beginning to feel better.

I'm still in a full leg brace. But thank the universe for inventing the walker, because without it the last 12 days would have been an absolute nightmare that might have pushed me right over the edge. At night I struggle with panic attacks, but I have my breathing exercises and they help. Today my husband is picking up a simple manual wheelchair with a right leg extender on it. I am hoping to sit up more.  


Still not able to be up for long periods of time. I can't type on my computer for more than a few minutes because I'm all twisted with my extended right leg shoots off in the opposite direction of my torso as I struggle to type. Using my laptop on my full-on couch encampment nest is even worse for some reason. But all this will change. All of this changes almost daily. Every day, I discover a  bit more I can do. The gift of healing is astounding.

I have lots of observations both cynical and ecstatic. I have much to say. I hope I can begin writing up a storm soon. In the meantime, here's a picture of my much beloved walker. Isn't she beautiful? My grandson promised he would come and decorate the basket with ribbons and construction paper strips. That will make me so happy. 
Joanne, I have thought a lot about how awful your bus accident convalescence must have been.


29 comments:

  1. I'm glad that you are feeling better everyday. But oy, what a bummer to have to go through all of this. Hope the healing goes well and quickly, Colette. Thinking of you.

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  2. I am glad to hear you are seeing daily healing. Those walkers are very useful, aren't they? I visit a gal who uses one occasionally. When she isn't using it she hangs clothes on it, double duty.

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    1. Great idea! I was wondering what I might do with it after I'm ready to rock and roll again.

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  3. You really damaged that leg! I wish you a complete and fast healing.

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    1. I did, Emma! So much can change in a matter of a few seconds. Thank you.

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  4. I'm sending hugs. Wish I was there to help (i.e., boss you around).

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  5. I've been there and believe you me it WILL get better, just try to keep a positive attitude and take it one day at a time. It's really true that what doesn't kill you makes you stronger!

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  6. Sending healing hugs Colette. It’s hard to be laid up. You have an amazing attitude though. 💜

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  7. “All of this changes almost daily” . You are on the road to recovery and that is a very good thing. Your attitude is terrific and will get you through this.

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  8. Thanks, Colette. I suppose it's a good comparison for personal suffering. Remember, I was in a medically induced coma for a month that I totally missed. Ha! Rehab was awful, as you seem to be finding, and in the end I lost my job. Life does change on a dime. Stay strong; every day done is one less. And thank your husband for coming to your aid. I truly hope he is stepping up to the nursing plate. My only additional advice is, when it's over, don't fall and break your leg. Stay strong; you're tough.

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    1. I just need to pay attention to what I'm doing.

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  9. I'm glad you're optimistic and in decent Spirits as you Heal and that the daily changes have been positive. Healing Energies being sent to you and I think decorating the Walker would be Fun!

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  10. It's good to know you are at the turning point of beginning to feel better. You and your healing "rodilla" have been in my thoughts. Sending love. Happy to know that your grandson promises to decorate your walker!

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  11. I'm so sorry this has all happened! What a pain in the .... knee. But you sound like you are grabbing the bull by the horns and not letting this do a number on your state of mind. Boy, am I looking forward to hearing about all the observations you will have when you "get back to it", which I hope is soon. Much good luck to you with the healing.

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    1. I really wish I could comfortably spend some time on my computer.

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  12. What pleases me is that this is a spirited tale of disaster. Dreadful happenings but your essential personality remains unchanged. The bounce is still there and - this is a writerly thing - you're delivering sharp detail rather than blurry abstractions. You have my sympathy and affection - of course you do - but in particular with respect to your frustration about the mechanics of expressing yourself. On the rare occasions I've been separated from my computer and thus - notably - its Delete key, it as if I'd been transported back to the Stone Age. A pencil or ball-point feels like a ball and chain, my brain slows down and my prose lumbers. I wouldn't have you like that; joy of joy for both of us it hasn't happened. Shrug off the medical impedimenta as soon as you can and re-join the Western literary tradition as a fully-equipped member. Bon voyage.

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    1. As always, enjoyed the comment. I keep trying to make lists while laying down (lying down?) and I can barely read what I've written when I look it over the next day.

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  13. Good to hear this. Always remember that every cell in our body is programmed for healing - by default. We just have to let them.
    Look after yourself.

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  14. Sorry you're having to go through this. Glad is wasn't worse. Glad your healing is moving along. Glad "T" was within screaming distance and able to snap into action.

    Walker is snazzy.

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  15. Oh my. You really did a number on yourself. Each day you will continue to feel better and better. Know that my thoughts are with you for a speedy recovery.

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